Monday, September 2, 2013

Changes, changes....

I am not good at dealing with changes. My strategy is to hide under the covers and wait until it is over.

So what is this post about? Restructuring. Per wikipedia,  "the act of reorganizing the legal, ownership, operational, or other structures of a company for the purpose of making it more profitable, or better organized for its present needs." In practice, it means jobs are lost.

I angrily wave my fist at the fates for letting me accept a job that was bound to be restructured less than a year after I started. I'm still standing, albeit I am now a part-timer. And the Sword of Damocles is still hanging above my head.

It is not a problem from an economic standpoint, but very frustrating career wise. What is my thing? I am not a mother, I am not a career woman. What else is there? On my days off, I scrub and mop and walk the dog and run errands and take the car to service. I go to the gym, I take German classes. I play the piano. I knit. I read. I watch documentaries. I put up with suggestions about going to grad school, volunteering, getting a second job, finding a better one, learning a new hobbie, fostering, adopting, rescuing another dog.

I don't want suggestions. I just want to be able to answer, when I get asked what I do, that I actually do something significant.

1 comment:

  1. Really sorry you're dealing with this. (As you may know, we're currently AWOL from life after my husband's job was lost in "restructuring.")

    If you ask me, "being you" is the something significant you do. It's not like you sit at home watching soaps every day. And if you did, and were happy, that would be okay.

    I do know the feeling that we should be "doing" something with our lives if we don't have kids. But the answer I've come up with? Just living those lives, and enjoying those lives, being happy, is enough. How many people can actually say that?