I think all the comments made me feel much better. Everyone of you knows what I am going through, and that really makes a difference.
I had to tell my parents and sister about this cycle due to travel issues. I am not looking forward to telling them the bad news. I wish I could just say something like: "It's negative, I'm fine, please don't say anything". But that's rude.
And so, I am putting it off until it becomes inevitable.
I also do not want to discuss the next step with either the spouse or Dr. Careful. I know what that is: IVF. Frankly, I don't think I can take it. What I really want to do is hit the antidepressants again.
I think it is perfectly fine to tell people you do not want to talk about it. I get like that too, what is there to say really after all. Sometimes you just need to be on your own for while.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with Dr. careful. If you are not ready for IVF it is perfectly fine to take some time before diving in to that.
Thinking of you.
How is your sister doing?
I agree with cgd. I think it's perfectly fine to tell people you don't want to talk about it, especially just now. Look after yourself and I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteAgree with both cgd and endoandbeyond and hopefully people will respect your request. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI also think that as long as you get clearance that the antidepressants are OK to take while TTC than go for it! You need to take care of yourself first :)
I'm with you on the IVF thing; it is scary...that is our next step if this IUI doesn't work.
I just know you are strong enough to handle whatever step is next. You can do "it" whatever that is, lol.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand not wanting to talk about it, especially given all you have been through and what your sister is going through. I don't think there is anything rude about telling them it didn't work and you would appreciate not speaking about it right now.
ReplyDeleteAs for IVF....*insert vomit*. If you aren't ready, then just take the time you need. Also, in the meantime, there is nothing wrong with taking an antidepressant.
Before I even read the comments I was thinking "it's okay to say you don't want to talk about it." I remember telling my sister I couldn't cope with phone calls, but loved emails cos I got the love without the stress.
ReplyDeleteMoving to IVF is a big shift. You have to grieve the loss of your natural fertility first I think. And even then, some people just don't see IVF as an option. And that's okay too. We all have our limits (IVF, donor egg, surrogacy or adoption). And our limits are right for us.