Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Decisions, decisions

I am a knitter. I have other hobbies, but knitting has been an ongoing thing since I was 13. Every year I go to this event.

Last year I was 15 weeks pregnant when I started bleeding in the middle of one of the knitting classes. I went to see my doctor immediately and they found out that the subchorionic hematoma that had been detected earlier had grown much larger.  Less than a month later I miscarried.

This year I did not bother to sign up, not wanting to ever be there again.

Dr. Funny insists I should go. It's too late to sign up for classes, but he wants me to go to the "Market" anyway and buy lots of yarn and supplies. Then I should go sit near the conference rooms where the classes are held and pull out my purchases, admire them and be happy about them. He says I should not let my miscarriage ruin the good things in my life. And I know he is right. So everyday I visit the website, browse around, read about the few classes still available,  the merchants that will be there, and think how much fun it is going to be.

But I have not bought my ticket yet.


  1. That sounds hard but might give you some much needed closure. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  2. ugh, I totally get this. I do think sometimes we need take back certain times, things, places, ect and not let IF and loss "have" them. If it was me, I would try to go, but I would let myself leave early if I felt too sad or uncomfortable. I love an exit strategy.
    I am so, so sorry for your loss....

  3. I can see both sides of the argument completely!! If it is something you love and it is a way to get that love back...I think it is worth a try. You can always leave. If I was close I'd go with ya and make you teach me!!!